seperation is

feel so emo n bu she de yesterday...
felt of lonely in sudden.
why so? I asked.
Keep asked while face down on the bed.
I dun wish to end thing that fast,
but seem time getting closer.
we..going to leave one day, and the day is getting closer.

what can I do?
I asked myself to appreciate those we have now..
learn how to show my appreciation, but i still a nut when roommate is back.
why such a nut am I.
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my turn to go back..
some how feel uneasy, I rehearse the feeling of leaving in "future".
I may feel even worse I think.

Life, this the life.
Nothing last forever ever, we stay and leave from time to time, place to place.
Everything will come to an end, nothing will last, except memory.
Kept and keep.
kept and keep from life to life..

In the dinner with family, mum ask me to work in UTAR Kampar,
so she can visit me anytime.
Am I bad? Mum seem starting to worry on me,
this her 1st time seriously.
She used to ask me go SG.
Now, she started to worry on the future distance between me n my family.
she started to worry will I get work stress or over load......
ask me go for easier job...
my mum..
I am no more a kid,I have did a lot in my school life.
Mum take me as younger rather than elder.
I do feel so, when I am home.

Future, the connection is still far.
I cant see it, cant touch... even got no idea..
I believe it gonna be something great for me~
something lead me to my idea life, I want to be somebody in my eyes.
not about money, not about name, it about "pay it forward".
while "pay" I am gaining, and I "forward" what I gain.
If can, I hope I can have friend and family with me.
At least can support me n be with me soul(ly).
I still need some significant and meaningful relationship.
Family n friends